i avoided it for seven months, but today i had the guts to weakly type our names into Google. then i had the guts to read comments on people's blogs, primarily made after the release of our video on Desiring God.
not really so fun.
"ian, people are saying uncomfortable things about us on the internet."
"people who have seen our video."
"what are they saying?"
"some that our marriage isn't legal and that you have the mentality of an eight-year-old."
"you don't believe them, right?"
"trying not to."
"they don't know us."
that's where it begins and ends. we've entered into a very public life, willingly, and we enter that with fear and trembling. we know and respect that we can have differing views. and we know that we are nothing extraordinary. we live in the midst of sin and fears and temptations. maybe we could have made the video differently. maybe i could have worded things differently. but eight minutes never sums up a life.
along with a public life comes scrutiny, and disagreement and other things that can feel really uncomfortable.
but, i can't help but feel the need to clear up two things, as maybe my lack of clearing them up has confused some people. ian does not have the mentality of an eight year old (an eight year old could not have given the answer of "stool pigeon" during a round of taboo last night) and yes, we do have sex.
we also love God and are in love with each other. we continue to pray for wisdom and discretion in this public role, as we embark on speaking engagements and writing a book. but we mostly pray that heaven would be oh so near.
thank you, for praying for ian.