"blessed is the man who remains steadfast under trial, for when he has stood the test of time he will receive the crown of life, which God has promised to those who love him." james 1:12
ian said that it's hard to see now that "blessed is the man," because this suffering doesn't always feel like blessing. but of the following words in the verse, ian said "it makes me anxious for heaven, because i have a hope. and that's a really good thing. The same desire might not be there if I didn't have a brain injury."
on sunday our pastor shared a word on how many in the body of Christ are fighting to bless God through tears and sickness and suffering, and what magnificent glory that brings to Him. in my heart this week at church was sin churning, unbelief, discouragement. my mind is filled with the "what ifs,"the "if onlys," the "i can't write on this blog, i'm a mess!" and the "please, God, just do this one thing." but if i choose to not bless the Lord nor trust in His goodness, then my only other option is to curse Him. and how could i, when i see all that He has done, through the cross alone. the rest of this, along with our salvation, is grace. and we want to choose to bless, no matter how impossible it feels. and through those battles, the Holy Spirit comforts us and shows us peace and helps us to say, 'bless the Lord, oh my soul, and forget not all His benefits."
we are so excited for heaven. we may be crawling by the time we get there, but it will be so very worth it.