Mar 22, 2012

dance with me


Thank you for healing me;
I was dying beneath my shame
But You brought me to life again, and I will sing:
Thank you for freeing me
I was dead to the truth of You,
But my healing was in Your wounds, and now I sing:
Thank you for healing me.

Though outwardly I may waste away,
On the inside I´ll be more alive every day.
As I walk through times of pain and grief
There´s a deeper truth inside of me...
You have placed Your life inside of me.

both ian and i have been feeling unwell over the past few days/weeks. god has been teaching us much but at times have grown weary and discouraged. tonight was a night that i would be alone with ian, without his brother here working and helping with transfers and the like. i didn't work all day, not feeling well enough, and i found myself feeling anxious about being alone to care for ian - evenings that i typically look forward to with much anticipation. 

but god has met us, and met this very tiny request of meeting our needs just on this night, which is a speck of our lifetime. ian has made me laugh, made our roommate jen laugh, forgotten her name which made us laugh really hard, and he has cared for me. we took a walk. we watched a movie. and just after i had hung up the phone, he told me he wanted to dance with me. and on pandora was a song that i had been searching for all week, and it was a perfect moment. a perfect moment because ian was showing god to me, loving me, asking me to dance with him, caring for me. and we were dancing to words of healing, and mercy, and life. this is my husband who, two years ago, could not sit up in bed by himself. his dad, and i, and his caregiver had to hold him for strength. and now, even though his arms and legs are tired, he's pursuing a dance with his wife. 

i am so grateful to the lord for my husband, and for these moments of sweetness and fellowship with the lord. i'm reminded each day that we are most clearly met when we are most weak.

thank you, always
i&l
...bless the lord, oh my soul...

11 comments:

EB said...

This deeply touches my heart.

Anonymous said...

That is lovely. Thank you for sharing. :)

Anonymous said...

Beautiful-
Thanks for sharing.
I just finished Kisses from Katie. What a wonderful read. Any other book suggestions?
Praying still-
Wendy in MD

Anonymous said...

No matter what God will reveal himself in little ways!
Wendy, nc

Anonymous said...

Wow, that was beautiful and so well said.
Ellen

videojen said...

Bless......

Bless that girl who went into the other room.

Aimee Pryor, OH said...

This is moving and so touching. Thank you for sharing your heart and your life. I have been following your blog ever since I heard your interview on Chris Fabry..which I know has been a while back. When you share, I sense God's goodness and His grace and His love. I too believe that it is when we are weak that we grow close to our Father. May He give you both strength and grace each day, and continue to bless your marriage!

Anonymous said...

I don't post often...but pray much. In the midst of my marriage trials you give me much wisdom and reminders of leaning and trusting. Praying for you and your book. You have so much to tell and give God glory, I am so thankful for your posts.

Friend from Sovereign Grace.

Leslie Dawn said...

Eliza Bed! Bed! I couldn't go to bed!
My head's too light to try to set it down! Sleep! Sleep!
I couldn't sleep tonight.
Not for all the jewels in the crown!
I could have danced all night!
I could have danced all night!
And still have begged for more.
I could have spread my wings
And done a thousand things I've never done before.
I'll never know What made it so exciting;
Why all at once My heart took flight. I only know when he
Began to dance with me I could have danced,
danced, danced all night!
Servant 1 It's after three now.
Servant 2 Don't you agree now,
She ought to be in bed.
Eliza I could have danced all night!
I could have danced all night!
And still have begged for more.
I could have spread my wings
And done a thousand things I've never done before.
I'll never know What made it so exciting.
Why all at once my heart took flight.
I only know when he
Began to dance with me.
I could have danced, danced danced all night!
Mrs. Pearce I understand, dear.
It's all been grand, dear.
But now it's time to sleep.
Eliza I could have danced all night,
I could have danced all night.
And still have begged for more.
I could have spread my wings,
And done a thousand things I've never done before.
I'll never know What made it so exciting.
Why all at once my heart took flight. I only know when he
Began to dance with me I could have danced, danced,
danced All night!

Angela said...

Larissa,
Your words are balm to my soul! I learn so much about true love
(the love that God gives us for us and to give to others) through your blog. Thanks for strengthening my love of Christ and my marriage through sharing your life.

Ashley Cherise said...

You two remind me to embrace and cherish simplicity. It is hard to remember to have a joyful heart on this earth, but you two do it SO well. I was once told to be thankful for the now, and to remember to thank Jesus for where I currently stand...but I had forgotten! Thank you for reminding me.
Praying for your wonderful family.