Oct 29, 2007
How is this good?
I don't know. I may never know in this life how our very difficult experiences with Ian are good when I think about the way that we typically define "good". I realized recently how much we define how "good" an experience is by how pleasurable it is for us. Or, we define good by the benefit it provides us like a nasty tasting cough medicine that, despite its taste, quiets the cough almost instantly. We sometimes even define it more altruistically and say to ourselves, "well, if what we're going through is good for others...I guess I can endure and be the heroic sacrificial lamb." We just can't help defining that word without ourselves as the central focus, but "good" is shallow defined that way. These trials aren't good in those ways. They're not pleasurable, and I really don't see clearly how they're good for us (though I'm sure ultimately eternity's light will help me see them that way).
But, again, I'm reminded that these trials are not about us.
Scripture says, "You are good and do good" (Ps 119:68). I have to stare at this verse and in faith acknowledge that not only is God good, but he DOES good. Somehow, some way, therefore, these trials are good. But not in the way we typically define the word. Peter's words in 1 Peter 1:6-7 are like guard rails on a dark path guiding me through dark trials: "you have been grieved by various trials, so that the tested genuineness of your faith — more precious than gold that perishes though it is tested by fire — may be found to result in praise and glory and honor at the revelation of Jesus Christ." I'm grieved by these trials. They're certainly testing my faith in God which I know is genuine. The revealing of the genuineness of my faith results in praise and glory and honor to God. That's good. That's very, very good.
Pray for Ian.
(with some of Larissa's edits too:)
p.s. from larissa- Ian clearly indicated to me tonight that he is sad. He also responded when I asked him if he wanted life to be normal again. Please pray that God would encourage him......