May 16, 2013
to myself, a reminder
this is for myself, a reminder for when the next day comes that was like the last. a reminder on the next day that i don't know how to enjoy with a brain injury and the day that the things he used to do are all that i see. this is a reminder for the next time my mind has my bags packed and i wonder how i will keep loving.
there is someone who has already swallowed up my marriage and someone who has already swallowed up my loss. it has been finished and so i can wait with my husband, tearfully, and know that my way has already been made for me. i can wake in the morning with mercies that don't seem new and know that this has already been done for me.
it was done before i was born. done before i knew him. before mrs. murphy.
i can keep making my way in hope because He has made me His own.
i can know that this has nothing to do with me. but instead, Him.