Jun 30, 2009

Be Thou my vision, O Lord of my heart
Naught be all else to me, save that Thou art
Thou my best thought, by day or by night,
Waking or sleeping, Thy presence my light

I was reminded again tonight through this song of how lost we can feel in our trials, griefs, sadness, confusion. It so often becomes unclear of what we are supposed to do, how we are to respond. Many of us are in situations that we can't change so not only are we in situations that we don't necessarily desire, but we don't always know how to correctly respond to them either. I don't want Ian's life to be like this, and I don't always clearly know how we are to respond since he hasn't been healed yet. And then the rare times when I am thinking clearly, and do feel like I know how I should respond, I'm too tired to act on that truth anyway.

God gently reminded me and reminded Ian through this song that God is always our vision. Whether we are waking or sleeping, understanding or confused, thinking clearly or swallowed by sadness, he is our light. He will continue to be our vision- it's not dependent on us or our response. God promises to be with us, whether we feel that He is or not.

This life is very, very hard and many, many people are travelling the broken road as wearied and tired bodies. Ian's road has been much more broken than I could ever have imagined. This man that I love dearly is severely afflicted and there is nothing that I can do to fix it. I can't heal him but how I desperately wish I could. But we have to press on, and hold fast that God is our vision and that he somehow will strengthen us to finish this race well- whether we feel like we can or not- and we'll try to laugh along the way. He will be our vision leading us to heaven.

Thank you for praying with us these long years.

Larissa

9 comments:

Anonymous said...

the blog was stunningly precious today. i love to see the glimpses of what christ is doing in your soul....through the pain of ian's suffering. i just can't embrace the pain....

Sharon said...

Larissa,

Beautiful hymn, beautiful thoughts from you -- may the beauty of Jesus continue to be seen in you, Ian and the Murphy family; to that end I will continue to pray....

Cynthia said...

Such precious thoughts, Larissa. Such a beautiful spirit that the Lord has placed in you. We will keep praying.......keep pressing on. The Lord will show His kindness --- we will cling to Him. He IS our Savior. He is our Help. He is our Hope.
I love praying for Ian. I can see such amazing progress---to see his smile is amazing. But my prayers ask for so much more.
I'll keep asking......
Cynthia Haughery

Anonymous said...

thank you...life has been hard lately and your words have given me fresh hope. thinking of you all daily.

Anonymous said...

God Grant me the Serenity to accept the things I cannot change-the Courage to change the things I can and the wisdom to know the difference! This simple prayer helped me thru a time in my life when I didn't think I would ever walk without pain again. May it help you and Ian on a much grander scale as your Journey is much harder. God is watching over you both and healing Ian in His time! Hang in there. You are all doing great!
Wendy, NC

Anonymous said...

Beautiful prayer and inspiring words from the heart. I am also praying for Ian and so is my cousin,who's husband had a severe brain trama this past December. I was recently told about Ian's journey and his wonderful family from a friend at work. I shared the site with my cousin and the honest feelings of stuggle along with the trust in God's purpose and love have given strength to us. Thank you. We will continue to pray and someday hope to come visit.

beth said...

thank you laris. love you.

Anonymous said...

larissa again i marvel..thank-you for allowing us to see your real and profound heart.
we continue to pray for you and ian.
mj and jb
please tell ian hello and hugs.

couragetotremble said...

The way you have selected the lines in this hymn is like a photographer perfectly framing the object he wants to shoot. Lovely. It is all about Him anyway, isn't it. He gives purpose to everything. And to Him alone be the glory.
Blessings