Feb 24, 2007


"For this reason I bow my knees before the Father, from whom every family in heaven and on earth is named, that according to the riches of his glory he may grant you to be strengthened with power through his Spirit in your inner being, so that Christ may dwell in your hearts through faith--that you, being rooted and grounded in love, may have strength to comprehend with all the saints what is the breadth and length and height and depth, and to know the love of Christ that surpasses knowledge, that you may be filled with all the fullness of God."Ephesians 3:14-19

The only time that Ian was really awake today was when I was reading this scripture to him and praying. I was lifting Ian and myself up to God, praying that he would give us just another glimpse of the beadth, length, height and depth of His love. God's word is so good and will never return void. I am so thankful for the opportunity to remind Ian of God's beautiful promises.

I desperately want to hear Ian tell me something, anything, of where he has been for the past four months. I want assurance that my boyfriend is able to feel the nearness of the Lord. I want to know that he is not lonely but can feel God with him at all times. But he can't tell me, and this is just one more area where faith enters the picture. And as Ben said in such a great way, if Ian is conscious and is aware of things, then God is definitely with him, because He promises that He will never leave nor forsake us (Hebrews 13:5). And even if Ian is just sleeping and won't even remember this time, God is still with him.

Keep praying that Ian comes back. I desperately want him back here with us.



Anonymous said...


I was watching "Melville" tonight and I missed Ian so much. So I can only imagine how much you long to hear what you can't hear right now. I believe that Ian knows a lot more than he's able to let on, and that he's receiving comfort and sweet, sweet, consolation from our Lord. His mind isn't working right, but his soul is in perfect working
order, so Jesus has full access to him. I can't imagine your secret suffering and my heart breaks to think of it. But if you can, for just a moment, imagine Ian sitting in front of you, just as he is, and then imagine behind him a back drop that is so glorious, you have to hide your face for a moment. Behind him moves all Goodness, all Kindness, all Sympathy, all Compassion, all Power, sweet Companionship, dear Friendship and Beauty that will cause us to cry and laugh and fall down, in worship, when we see it.

The Lord knew who He was placing beside Ian when He chose you for him. You are all that any man could dream or hope for. I miss you.


Anonymous said...

I miss Ian for you! You are truly in the world, beside Ian's bed in Children's, and yet not of the world, being transported by God's Word and the hope it gives. The battle continues, in prayer for Ian, and with our thoughts. You are never alone, we are with you! Gretchen