this is for myself, a reminder for when the next day comes that was like the last. a reminder on the next day that i don't know how to enjoy with a brain injury and the day that the things he used to do are all that i see. this is a reminder for the next time my mind has my bags packed and i wonder how i will keep loving.
there is someone who has already swallowed up my marriage and someone who has already swallowed up my loss. it has been finished and so i can wait with my husband, tearfully, and know that my way has already been made for me. i can wake in the morning with mercies that don't seem new and know that this has already been done for me.
it was done before i was born. done before i knew him. before mrs. murphy.
i can keep making my way in hope because He has made me His own.
i can know that this has nothing to do with me. but instead, Him.
Have you seen this, Larissa?
ReplyDeletewww.hopeheals.com/shortfilm
God is so glorified in yours and Ian's lives :) Thank you for your honest and vulnerability on this blog. Will be praying for a rejuvenated spirit.
ReplyDeleteLife is hard. God is good.
ReplyDeleteStill praying.
Wendy in MD
Your story is amazing. Blessings to you and may your day be filled with goodness. Happy Friday.
ReplyDeleteYour story is amazing. Blessings to you and your marriage. May your day be filled with goodness. Happy Friday.
ReplyDeleteamen and amen.
ReplyDeleteAmen!
ReplyDeleteIt really is out of our hands isn't it? I'm amazed how I'm always led to your posts when I'm feeling much the same way. Thank you for sharing your feelings. What an inspiration.
God bless you sweet heart -- you and Ian. Have a joyful weekend!
This is so beautiful. Amen.
ReplyDeleteYou are both an amazing witness and testimony to God's love and grace, and I thank you for your encouragement. Will keep you in my prayers x
ReplyDeleteAs my pastor says:
ReplyDeleteIt's always about Jesus.
It's only about Jesus.
It's ever about Jesus.
Blessings to you and your marriage.
praying♥
ReplyDeleteThe words at first paint a picture of pain, and then the colors and mood change, speaking of God's grace.
ReplyDeleteMy son is ADHD and OCD and often those messed up brain chemicals make life a chore. Then, right about when I don't know how I'll cope, God shows up with the message you speak of here.
Beautiful, and praying that His grace showers you both today.
Be strong Larissa! You can do it, praying for you!!
ReplyDeleteBeautifully written and expressed. You couldn't be more right...it's all about Him. Beautiful, glorious, merciful, patient, omniscient Him. Have you ever heard the song "Passionate, Beautiful" by Kate Hurley? It may be on youtube. I hope you will look it up sometime. Our savior is truly passionate and beautiful. Greater than all our hardships! :)
ReplyDeleteL. , All I can say is: AMEN!! You are wise beyond your years. God has blessed you both. Rene
ReplyDeleteI cannot tell you what an encouragement you are to me as I struggle with new health difficulties every day. Today, hearing words that could change my life forever. Nothing deadly, just catastrophic to my way of life. And you point me back to Christ. Every time.Every time I forget. And you remind me again.
ReplyDeleteThank you. Praying for you and Ian so often..
you are beautiful...thanks for being a channel for the Spirit.
ReplyDeleteDear Larissa,
ReplyDeleteMay God give you strength and joy to press on!
Here is my recent post about wanting to escape my trials, if it is any help:
http://mebanepilgrim.blogspot.com/2013/05/escaping-responsibility.html
Jesus is enough. Cling to Him!
Yes He is enough. I enjoy reading your blog. How real you are. God Bless you and your hubby.
ReplyDeleteI needed to read this today, Larissa. Thank you for being so honest. Thank you for the beautiful answer you give to get through it.
ReplyDelete-Jeri
http://sweetaftermath.blogspot.com/2013/06/crash-landing-in-holland.html
This is absolutely beautiful and profound.
ReplyDeleteI am so inspired by you and Ian. I have passed your blog and story on to my four small group gals. Now you have five more ladies praying for you both. This excerpt was especially beautiful. Thank you for sharing your lives.
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