May 30, 2011
We had a fantastic three-day weekend, kicked off by a great wedding between our friends Mike and Jocelyn, followed by traveling to my sister's to see her son be dedicated to the Lord. And it ended today with a few hours in a pool and relaxing on the porch.
I've been reminded often recently of how full our lives are and our marriage is. Even though it's a battle every day to be content in God and a continuing struggle to learn to accept Ian's disability, God has filled our lives to the brim with faithful family and friends. We have five nieces and nephews under the age of five, Murphy and Whiteley families that love us to death, and our house is never empty of friends. We have lived through a long season of feeling isolated that only intense disability can bring, only to find a beautifully filled life waiting on the other side. so thank you to all of our incredible family and friends for loving us so well.
here's to what hopefully becomes a great summer.
p.s. is it just me, or do ian and i look like we could be related in this pic??
May 23, 2011
Sorry for the lack of posts recently. We don't have any significant updates, except that Ian's new doctor is trying some new routes to stimulate ian's brain. we're praying that they work and that the side effects are minimal.
the knee surgery may still be an option but it's a huge decision that we are hoping to spend time praying about and thinking through the consequences either way.
thank you for praying with us for so many years.
May 15, 2011
after a good weekend, a new week starts. after our appointment with the surgeon last week, we are unsure whether we should proceed with the surgery, but we are leaning towards not. there are very serious risks with limited expectation for improvement.
please pray for wisdom for this as we continue to pray and think about the surgery, as well as some upcoming and needed changes to ian's therapy routine.
May 13, 2011
May 10, 2011
is what i found myself saying to ian tonight as he drove his wheelchair on our walk. it was meant simply as a reminder to open his squinting eyes just enough to see the road that he needed to drive on. the asphalt itself wasn't that pretty and we had to watch a few potholes. but the beauty around it was clear- a big green field, full trees, dandelions along the edge of the road.
in that moment, i realized that i needed to do in my heart what i was telling ian to do with his wheelchair. it was a particularly hard day, with words like plateau and baseline thrown in to a conversation about ian's progress (or lack of) and i found myself thrown into spiraling thoughts, fearing ian's future, fearing physical decline, fearing that i won't be able to give my husband what he needs. and while i was thinking of all of those things, i had my eyes closed to anything beautiful. before we left for our walk, i told ian that i needed to see god. i needed to see him in way that would refresh my thoughts that god is still here and god still makes beauty in the midst of our ugly mess. i needed to have my eyes opened to the beauty that was around the road, not the road itself. the beauty that was ahead of the road, not the potholes that we had to steer around.
it is so so hard to see beauty when i'm surrounded by nature that is groaning for the return of the lord. it's so hard to see beauty when i'm being told that my husband won't get any better. but it has to be in there somewhere. somewhere.
thank you for your constant prayers for ian. tomorrow we see the surgeon for a consultation on his knee. please pray that we would make a good decision in faith that god will provide for us.
May 3, 2011
i have to shamelessly promote this book, because it has been changing my thought life since i started reading it. it is one of the most beautiful stories i have read and happily reminds me of my favorite, stepping heavenward by elizabeth prentiss. a perfect book for anyone looking to see more of god.
more info here
May 1, 2011
We just got back from our 5k in d.c. for brain cancer awareness/research in honor of steve. thank you everyone who ran/walked with us and everyone who donated to our team.
And we know that for those who love God all things work together for good, for those who are called according to his purpose. romans 8.28