i have spent the first year of marriage trying to create a new life for, a happier world for ian. we've tried to learn to love god more, we've surrounded ourselves with beautiful friends, ive worked to decorate our home with loveliness, have spent countless hours with our loving families. we live in a great house that right now is covered by a beautiful breeze and is surrounded by green trees and grass. and it feels right and full and good. but at the end of the day, the home that i want to create for ian is an impossible task. the life that we want to have, free of disabilities and therapy and deficiencies is not up to us at all. and the One who could change it, hasn't.
so i'm left with a great task. to keep digging for contentment, digging, digging and digging.
and as i share my heart with my wonderful husband, his words are "i'm so glad that god gave me a wife." such simple gratefulness. maybe i'll catch up with him someday.
thanks for praying
laris
Thank you for continuing to share, Larissa. "the One who could change it, hasn't" is almost word for word what was coming out of my mouth earlier this evening. I can get sick of perseverance and just want relief. But thank you for your example of continuing to dig for contentment in Christ, even with weak hands.
ReplyDeleteWhat a miracle of grace to grow even an inch closer to saying with Paul:
"Not that I am speaking of being in need, for I have learned in whatever situation I am to be content. I know how to be brought low, and I know how to abound. In any and every circumstance, I have learned the secret of facing plenty and hunger, abundance and need. I can do all things through him who strengthens me." (Phil. 4:11-13)
Keep fighting for faith, dear sister. He will complete the good work he is doing in you. And I will be among those cheering you on when our Father says to you, "well done, good and faithful servant...enter into the joy of your master."
Praying for you this evening that you and Ian would know an abundance of his peace and joy, and even a bit of fun. :)
Stunning in its stark simplicity and aching words, your post makes me want to dig right along with you. You encourage me to be grateful every time I get a peek into your life with your Ian.
ReplyDelete[What, what would have become of me] had I not believed that I would see the Lord's goodness in the land of the living!
Wait and hope for and expect the Lord; be brave and of good courage and let your heart be stout and enduring. Yes, wait for and hope for and expect the Lord.
Psalm 27:13-14(Amplified Bible)
Someone just shared some quotes with me from John Piper's "The Roots of Endurance" and I wondered if that book would be encouraging to you also. Still reading and praying!
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Whenever I think of the wind I pray for God to make me like the wind and the sea who obey God. Thank you for being a cup of cold water to our souls. What a deep love your husband Ian has for you Larissa.Romans 12:8♥
ReplyDelete"Or he that exhorteth, on exhortation: he that giveth, let him do it with simplicity; he that ruleth, with diligence; he that sheweth mercy, with cheerfulness."