Apr 18, 2011

good for my soul

i am reading "a grace disguised" on my lunch breaks, which is a great way to direct my thoughts halfway through the day. i came across this passage today and was struck by my desire to hopefully feel this way someday as well:

I still remember the accident. who could forget the horror of it? but I also remember what has happened since. who would want to forget the wonder of that? my memory has become a source of healing for me. it reminds me of the loss. but it also tells me that the loss was not simply the ending of something good; it was also the beginning of something else. and that has turned out to be good too.

ian's brain injury in itself isn't a good thing. it's horrible. and sad. and discouraging. and changes everything about our lives. but it has been the beginning of something else and i have to trust in our wise and gracious god, that this way was better than health. i certainly don't feel it but i have to know it in my head, or else these days are just far too long.

thanks as always for praying.

7 comments:

jah's girl said...

may our loving God reward ur faith... yes, sometimes life can look bleak... and very hopeless... but it still doesn't change d fact that our God is a Good God... always and forever...

love ur faith and d way u discourage d devil always... just popped in to tell u this...

God bless u guys with His peace... :) :)

denise said...

Still thinking of and praying for you. I know there's gonna be a extra super massive celebration in heaven when both of you get there. love.

Sarah said...

Larissa,
I'm still reading and praying for you. Today I'm praying that God would display his grace to you in a very tangible way that would boost your faith and joy in knowing that God's ways are not our ways and that they truly are better (nay, best) for us. I'm praying for this to be a concrete evidence to your heart of the truth you already know so deeply.
God is going to complete the good work he's doing in you, and he is also using you to do that work in so many others as well. Thank you for clinging to Christ so well, dear sister.
With love,
Sarah Sensenig (Lancaster)

Sharon said...

A widowed friend recommended this book to me, and I ordered it right away. She mentioned that the "theology" of grief was good, Now your exerpt confirms my expectations.

Will continue to pray for God's hope in the midst of difficult circumstances for you both.

Anonymous said...

Larissa this is neat! I read that same book for the first time about 7 months ago when I was going through an extremely difficult time in my life. God has used Mr. Sittser's words and story to drastically help me. Every night I'd read more of the book while my soul was in grief. Every night I'd read about what I had just experienced that same day....it was truly amazing how the Holy Spirit used the truths in His Word, recorded so personally by Sittser,to refocus my eyes on our Lord when they were starting to drift from Him during my darkest hours. May the Lord bless you as you read. It often felt like God and Satan were at war with my soul when I read it, so at times I would fall asleep crying and emotionally drained, begging Jesus for help. He did help me and He got me through, as He always has and always will. He's getting you through as well! I'm so thankful we are both His! Even though we have never met we are sisters because of the blood of Jesus Christ. Pretty cool!
Wendy in MD

Leslie Dawn said...

Remembering mine affliction and my misery, the wormwood and the gall.
My soul hath them still in remembrance, and is humbled in me.
This I recall to my mind, therefore have I hope.
It is of the LORD's mercies that we are not consumed, because his compassions fail not.
They are new every morning: great is thy faithfulness.
The LORD is my portion, saith my soul; therefore will I hope in him((♥))~Lamentations 3:19-24

Evie said...

Your faith and perseverance is encouraging!