Jul 10, 2007
I'm sure you've had that scary question hiding in the shadows if you haven't already fought with it. Why did God allow Alivia to die? Why did God allow Ian to experience this terrible ordeal? Why would He allow such heartache for the families and close friends? It's a scary question, because the answer could be that God is either not in control or not kind by nature or not caring enough to notice. I've had to do battle with that question by reminding myself of the truth of who God is.
This mushroom grew up in my yard almost overnight, and within a couple of days it was gone again. We're just as temporary as that mushroom. The right question, then, is the one the Psalmist asks (Psalm 8:4): "what is man that you are mindful of him and the son of man that you care for him?" Why do you care for such a temporary creature when you are eternal and so full of glory that we can't even comprehend it? Why do you care for creatures who have rebelled against you and gone their own way? Why do you let any of us live at all?
Still, to be honest, the question won't die. I have to walk away from it with a brash confidence that it won't take me down and remind myself that I don't have all the answers. My protection is the truth that God reveals about Himself in His Word. It's my only hope.
Ian continues to take very small steps toward recovery. It's good to come home from work, sit down next to him in his wheelchair, and have him turn his head toward me and look right at me. When I think about where he was, it really is amazing to see his progress.
Pray for Ian.