"Why are you cast down, O my soul,
and why are you in turmoil within me?
Hope in God; for I shall again praise him,
my salvation and my God."
Ian sat in a "normal" chair tonight- a wing back chair that we've had in his room. He did really well. It was his first time in nine months not sitting or laying in something weird like a wheelchair or a hospital bed. He wasn't supported by any straps and he was able to put his feet on the ground. That must've felt so good for him.
We noticed however that Ian seemed to be having a challenging day. He gave me two long, deliberate blinks tonight when I asked him if he was discouraged. We don't know what he's discouraged about or if he definitely is discouraged. His therapists tonight suggested that as he becomes more awake, he will become more aware of his current disabilities- what a challenging thought that is. I don't know what all he is able to process and understand or how aware he is of his condition. But he knows who we are, he knows how to hold our hands, he knows how to swallow food- he must be aware that his body is not doing what it used to do. I can't imagine not being able to do the simplest things for nine months. I think about how limited he is physically and I can understand why he might feel discouraged. What makes this more challenging is that it is not Ian's character at all to be heavily discouraged by anything. I remember asking him if he wanted to be healed and he said "yes"- he knows that he needs God to heal him.
Only the Lord can encourage Ian. And we are blessed in that Ian is an object of God's love and mercy, not His wrath. We do not know his specific struggles or needs. And even if we did, we could not satisfy those needs. But the Lord does. This all is for the Lord's glory and this, this little trial that we face in our thoughts tonight is working for us a greater good and is sanctifying Ian. For Ian to have one glimpse of the Lord's face tonight would would bless him in a way that none of us could fathom.
Please join us in praying that Ian would deeply experience the Lord's presence and encouragement tonight. Ian lies tonight in his bed at the foot of the cross, at the mercy of our Lord, in the hands of our savior.