I'm sitting in the hotel room tonight after a long day at this great conference. It has been such a blessing to meet some of the people that have been following this blog and praying for Ian, some since the day of the accident. I am so moved again by the fact that people who don't even know Ian feel a weight on their heart to daily lift him and us up in prayer. Only God could stir hearts like that.
I was talking this morning with someone who reads the blog daily and throughout our conversation I was saying how God's grace alone has sustained me through this. She then asked me what I do in my moments of darkness and basically asked what do I practice in times of temptation. What a great question. I think I responded by saying that I stop and ask God to help me and give me grace. God has also helped me to be diligent in my quiet times and I daily have seen the fruit of that. But that question really made me start thinking more about grace and what it has actually done in my life. These are my thoughts so far.
I have been enveloped with grace for the past eight months. I have been given abundantly more grace than I have asked for in prayer. I have walked along with the Murphy's through what apart from Christ is a huge tragedy, full of sorrow, and lacking of hope. But we have not been crushed. God has met me in every hour of need and I have no way to explain that other than to credit it to God's infinite love for me. Nothing has shown me more of His character than being carried by His grace through this suffering. His grace is what allows me to get out of bed in the morning when my emotions tell me that hiding under the covers would be best. His grace is what allows me to look at Ian and see the man that I want to marry. His grace is what allows Steve and Mary to care for all of their oldest son's physical needs. His grace is what allows us to say 'it is good that I was afflicted.'
This conference opened with singing "Amazing Grace." I was crying instantly because we sang that song countless times over Ian while he was in the hospital. Ian is a recipient of God's amazing grace. We are experiencing, right now, God's amazing grace. "Through many dangers, toils and snares, I have already come." And "grace will lead me home."
Thank you for your prayers. And thank you, Chrissy, for challenging me with that great question.