Ian's progress (or lack of it) has provided an opportunity to practice taking my thoughts captive to obey Christ (2 Cor 10:5). For example, I visited Ian today while the speech therapist was working with him, and it struck me for some reason how he wasn't swallowing completely. That thought hit me at first like a surprise punch in the stomach. But, I had to capture that thought and remind myself of the command of Scripture to rejoice (Phil 4:4-7) and make my thought obey Christ. I've been studying that passage lately. I'm to rejoice because of the kindness God has shown me. I'm to rejoice because God is in control. I'm to rejoice because of the truth that God's favor toward Ian and toward all of us has not changed. So, I reminded myself of the progress Ian has made, and Larissa reminded me of that progress. I reminded myself that God has shown him mercy. I reminded myself that God's favor hasn't left Ian. I reminded myself that my confidence is in God not in what I see of Ian's progress, and I made my thoughts turn again to Christ.
These momentary discouraging thoughts sometimes come with lightening speed and with some serious power behind them. Sometimes they're glancing blows. It's always a lot of work, though, like climbing up a long flight of uneven steps. Sometimes the steps are harder to get up, and sometimes they're easier. But, it's always work. Thankfully, there is grace to strengthen, and we remain in peace.
The building of the addition to our house continues thanks to so many people who give of their time. We learned today that an issue of how some of Ian's hospital bills were to be paid was resolved. And, the best news of the day was that on a couple of occasions Ian reached to take Larissa's hand in response to some things she said to him, things that would normally have elicited a response like that. Cool.
Thanks for praying.